Envy often has strong overtones of malice, however when I speak of my personal situations of envy I have more of a "You Lucky Bastard" theme going on.When we were new horse owners we would visit other friends with horses and openly admit our pasture envy. Our horses were eating on fenced in lawn areas and others had vast expanses of real pasture. Since then we've established five pastures on our property, so that envy is subsiding. Now we have indoor arena envy.
I spent a lot of time with Gearhead at a conference this weekend. Gearhead has been a dear friend for the last ten years and a major source of envy for me. He lives on this beautiful farm, has an immaculate shop, a cool vintage trucks, motorcycles and he invents cool stuff, like his fork lift that can go 60 MPH. He has a really cool tractor and the list goes on and on. He rubs it in and I don't mind. I know what hard work it took for him to get all these things and I don't begrudge him any of his success. If I had different priorities, I could have a vintage truck and a tractor and so on.
Well Gearhead topped himself this weekend. He introduced me to his daughter. I never wanted children, yet oddly as I grow older and I see the now adult children of my friends I get a twinge where I wonder if it would have been worth it to have some children of my own, especially a daughter. It seems that daughters mature into better people earlier than boys. Boys don't seem to mature into something you can be proud of until they get into their mid 40's, but it seems girls mature nicely by the time they get out of college and they just seem to understand what it takes to be mature and civil.
So thanks, Gearhead. You've instilled me with daughter envy just when I was content without one.
Hiç yorum yok:
Yorum Gönder